Saturday, February 6, 2010

Just another day...



So I stand and look around
Distracted by the sounds
Of everyone and everything I see
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need



(disappear-hoobastank)

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Just one of those days, when you dont know what to think or how to feel anymore....

when you dread the silence around you so much that you find your self roaming aimlessly, seeking recluse in the city's traffic and random faces.

when your head is so full of thoughts, yet you feel so empty inside...

so hurt, yet so totally devoid of emotions...



Life can be crazy sometimes, its like sitting in an f1 car and watching the world in a blink of an eye with hardly anytime to react....

Whats left at the end of it all is a huge cloud of dust and confusion and unanswered questions like 'what if' and 'why' and ironically while this whole whirlpool of emotions is fucking up your peace of mind, closure seems to be the only thing that eludes you.



Its 4 am as i write this and im sleep deprived like always, slightly out of my mind and maybe a little hurt somewhere deep down too...but life is an uphill struggle and we all must pay our dues.



Now im looking for something that would put things in perspective but like always, i find my self struggling for the right lines...Contrary to what many people think, im bad with words and even worse with letting my feelings show...but then i'm done trying anyway.



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PPS- The writer of this blog is highy delusional, constantly bipolar and partially demented and is not meant to be taken seriously.



2 comments:

S said...

And somehow it's that 'one' particular day for me too ! No, it's not coz of any person, for me .. as it seems with you !

I'm watching this space to leave a comment, which can make any sense .. But I feel blank too .. May be I just don't know anymore what/how/why to write !!

Take care :)

Anonymous said...

dunno about delusional, bipolar and partially demented(though i sincerely believe you are neither.) but pretty much everyone has a set of people in their lives who do take you seriously. and some who act well.

ps: emotions aren't shown, they are seen. and if ur frnds cant see them well they are the ones at fault.

pps: j.a.g, whats keeping you up at 4 am in the night? being out of your mind? or just being plain confused?
or something else?
sleep well.