In time...

Getting too close, while letting you go
More than i can take, more than you will know
Unarmed and defenseless, just like they say
You’re the only one to blame when you give yourself away

To breathe you in or shut you out
In my conviction or even my doubt
Could you be my protection if you choose to stay?
Guess you’re the one to blame when you give yourself away

To walk away or get left behind
A answer left to fate and time
You’ll have your reasons, but the choices I will make
Cause I’m the only one to blame if i give myself away

To my great regret

What felt so strong was dead and gone
and nothing but the guilt remained;
no more hurt, no more rage
with nothing to prove and nothing to say

The cloudy skies and roaring waves
also sighed in retrospect-
she stood accused for not her faults
she stood tonight in deep regret


Its time for me to go, she said
putting an end to all the pain,
and then she turned and walked away
never to be seen again

They knew there was no turning back

and it was time to let it die;

the dues were payed, the time was served

what could have been was lost that night

***


Davy Jones : Lookie here my boys. A lost bird that never learned to fly.
Jack Sparrow : To my great regret...But its never too late to learn.

A touch of your Grace...

A chapter new
a story old
an open book
with bends and folds;
A broken heart
some broken ties
a weary soul
deserted eyes.

A solitude
a dark recluse
all locked up
a spirit consumed;
A pool of blood
some unsure cuts
her trembling hands
a blissful hurt.

The pain consumes
and time slows down
another stranger
an unknown town;
A life forlorn
another realm
eternal peace
a journeys end.

Before she drowns
before she falls
one last breath
one final thought;
A struggle within
a cry for help
a new found closure
receding steps.

A healing touch
a twist of fate
an answered prayer
amazing Grace;
An angel descends
he makes her believe
she finds new hope-
An ecstasy.

A ray of light
a leap of faith
the end of despair
a higher solace;
A reason enough
a brand new life
she now stands tall
no longer denied.

Something borrowed...

thinking of the good old times
then fearing getting left behind
thinking of the me in you
something borrowed
something blue

thinking of the lines we crossed
all of my destructive thoughts
and that crazy head of yours
something borrowed
something lost

thinking of the morning light
thinking of the honest lies
somewhere else you gotta be
someone wrong
but something right

thinking of the years that passed
looming darkness and the fall
and a love that couldn’t last
someone stronger
through it all

thinking of all the lost times
finding reasons, missing signs
a chance to find what matters most
something clearer
something mine ~

planktons...

"Planktons...more...some more ...and the lonely little you, left feeling empty...after each of them is gone....but life goes on you know... new people will come, better ones...but soon you'll be nothing but a mute observer, immune to things they say and do... see the thing about this hollowness is, that it never ends....."

-

Just let me walk away

while the pictures tear and burn

cause you need no answer-

I owe you no explanation

Let the questions be unasked

let the memories fade and rust

for i have touched you and passed-

pass by me too.

There's a Calming way about you

There's a calming way about you...
Yes you have a way with me;
Only you can shut all the noises
And make me feel complete

There's a calming way about you...
I feel it in your embrace;
When you kiss back and hold me tight
The world just goes away

There's a calming way about you...
Every time i see your eyes;
I lose my way and I cant think straight
But you bring me back to life

There's a calming way about you...
Something that they'll never see;
And I can fly to the moon and back
Just cause you believe in me

There' a calming way about you...
this thing I can't explain;
I crash, I fall, I bruise, I hurt
But you make me rise again

There's a Calming way about you...
Something I'll never admit;
You are the guy who holds me down
You are my perfect fit

There's a calming way about you...
Yes you have your way you see;
You're the only home I've ever known
Your the reason why i breathe.

_____

Ps- I take back everything i said about Mumbai.U all were right all along.Its Glam and flashy and fastpaced...But 'home' is where the heart rests, and in my case literally :P Cant wait to get back :)

A lady...

"It is but true

that a lovely flower

can also bloom in blue

vagaries of spring

can find their voice

in an ice cold drink

thoughts can take flight

like a butterfly

out of the cocoon on first light

it is got to be said

that the lil girl is no more

she's now a lady instead"

- Happy b'day...lady :)

******************************

"Uhh...really? u think?", She sheepishly murmured with a deep thoughtful look, after a very drunk night.

"Think what?"

"The lady bit...u mean that?"

He smiled as he flipped through a birthday card with a tiny little note that adorned her bedside.

"Lets just put it this way -

other than matters of the heart..

you are pretty sensible and smart....

now thats pretty lady like .what say?"

She had passed out on the couch before he could complete...

He smiled to himself as he kissed her forehead and turned out the lights.

;)

whats left of me...

diverted hopes
deserted dreams
wasted emotions
a love that could not be

scars and stitches
rues and cries
pain and hurt
regrets and sighs

unresting thoughts
an emptiness
a sinking feeling
a loneliness

a broken bond
unspoken words
a dying hope
a fading light

ecstasy

If only I could let you know-

My love, My hope, My soul's recluse;

You've become the very air I breathe,

You've made me fall in Grace with you.

When the rain comes pouring down on me,

And Im lost and cold and dont know what to do,

You become my ecstasy;

Cause i go crawling back to you..."

Weathered...

Someday she will breakaway from this cloud of dust; but not today...
Someday she will let her inhibitions go and trust; but not today...

Someday she will learn to love again and move past the hurt; but not today....
Someday she will breathe easy and life wont be a masquerade; but not today....

Someday someone would reach out and she wont be cold; but not today....
Someday her miseries would be nothing but a story untold; but not today....

Someday she will be loved and no longer forlorn; but not today...
Someday she will find her way back home; but not today...